Why do we fall in love?

Love is so annoying. I admit I have had tuff times when I'm in love with someone. I believe something will happen and I wait forever for it to happen, but it never does. But I'm still in love with the guy why am I doing this to myself? I think we or I fall in love because I want to feel secure and to just be with someone who understands you, but who can even find someone like that. I feel as if I want to feel what they feel, feel their warming touch on your hand. Sorry if I'm grossing you out, but everyone wants atleast something like that. It is in our blood to have a constant companion to love and to care for. Love is someone who is like your best friend, but understands you more than others. I dont have to have passion to love. Love can be just a touch of sweet warm words going deep into your soul. But for me love stinks because sometimes you cant have them or they dont want you.

Addiction

In my past years I have developed many things that are addictiong to me. For example just like three days ago I signed up on x fire. It is were you can talk and play games with other people. It has been so addictiong like I spend all of my time talking to people. This unruthless habit has made the worst of me. It seems that every second of my life I think of x fire and tempted to sign on it. This is just one example of many of the cruel realities of addiction. Its not just drugs or alcohol its more like the new technologies or food. This sudden addiction is not good for ones mental health. Instead of doing homework or reading the scriptures the most common activity in ones life is watching tv or play games on the computer/x box. So why is this? Maybe one feels that it is the only releaf they feel to make them feel relaxed or confertable. Or maybe we are all falling to the hands of the media's stand point or the sudden stands of peer pressure. What ever the reason's are it is making us stupider. Instead of knowing what the square root of 246 is we know who kissed Pam on the show The Office. We are all falling to the stupidity of addiction. So what are we going to do about this problem, nothing absolutly nothing. Because all of the businesses that sell x boxes, fancy new computers, and television all need the money to make a living and workers make a living. So to make other peoples lives better they ruin the lives of others by making them stupid. Way to go world way to go, with your greed.

Why am I so forgetful?

In the past couple of weeks and sometimes years I've been so forgetful. Why is that? I suppose it is just common between us humans, but for me I feel like I forget everything. Like right after I take a test I totally forget what I just learned and what I had the test on until someone reminds me. I don't know if it is a phsycological problem or if I am just slower than others, but I do know that I am just different than others, that I just have better skills than remembering skills. Just last week I forgot to write my blog, I suppose that we all have our differences and that we are better at other things. Thats why I think school is just over rated because I know a lot of people who are really smart, but don't do so well in school. I believe that being forgetful is just a part of nature and that we should live up to it and forget about our prejudice of other people's diffences.

Why do I not like family parties?

What A world I live in, with most of my relitaves who live close by, and who love me and care for me. But why is it that I dont feel confertable or a dread towards family get togethers? Right now, right this very minute I am having a family party and I'm here doing homework. I would rather do homework than being with my family. I am like this probably because I am not in the least sociable. I do not like talking to people I've known and sometimes I have envy towards them. I act like I'm all happy to see them, but in reality im not. I just get stressed and think of other things I need to do or rather do. Especially on Sunday where I have to get all my homework done that is due the next day. In all of my many years of family parties I have been shy and hidden in my own misery. I dont really know why I feel so miserable. I suppose it is just hard for me to be outgoing, so I just dread it and I hate myself for doing that. I am Angela Wiest and I am an antisocial.

Why do I like to spend time on the computer?

Everyday constantly I've been spending most of my time playing, listening to music and talking to my freinds on my computer. I grow a sudden desire to be on the computer. Sometimes it is fun and feels great talking to my friends and listening to music, but I other times I feel as if I should not be on the computer. I know that when I'm on the computer I am wasting time, but I don't care. Why is that? Am I rebeling against myself, against what I should be doing. I think I might be. I just can't find my calling in life so I do something that I enjoy and have a constant need for. Right now I feel as if I should stop spending my time on the computer, but tomorrow I would probably go strat to the computer. It's a complicated cycle and I can't stop this sudden urge.